hi, i’m nuri. this is where i’ll post things i’m working on (when i remember to) — whether its music, or musings, or fiction, or video, or live events, or whatever comes next. if you want to follow along, it’s free, or you can choose to pay. you don’t get anything extra if you pay, but you help support me to keep doing the things, and i appreciate it. 💕
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You'd Better Watch Yourself 😅
My new song is out now.
I'm sure you've already seen / heard 🫠
But i wanted to share, as usual (i hope?) the production / inspiration playlist for this track. In case i haven't mentioned previously, for each of my tracks i put together a playlist (of varying length) of songs that inspired it, or that were production references for the recording or mix. Spotify tends to be where i listen to music, so i make the playlists there, but if someone has a preferred platform beside that, i could maybe reproduce them elsewhere as well.
and the day came
i wrote a thing. it might be awful. it might be a really shitty take. i might someday learn to share my work without preamble, BUT NOT TODAAAAAAY! 🤪
EDIT: I wanted to add a credit and link back to a piece that inspired this, by Esther Alter, who I would like to thank for permission to credit her.
and the day came
more of marai (or whatever), part 3
i thought i had already posted something today, and then i realized i hadn't 🤣
i'm still kind of recovering from covid, so i'm not quite 100% and ready to work on new music yet, and i didn't feel inspired to work on writing today — frankly, my day job kind of took over big time today, starting right at the jump (which is saying something when you work from home).
quick update + more uke stuff
so, i've decided to skip that grant application this time around. i don't feel like i have a work that neatly fits their guidelines, and i don't want to try to shoehorn something i've got into a place where it won't fit — which is kind of a relief, because i really just want to focus on making that piece the best version of itself it can be, because it's kind of important to me.
do i / don't i?
a journal because my brain no worky so good
I’m trying to focus on a particular piece i want to write, but it’s not coming out right and i’m worried it’s feeling forced. I hate working to deadlines. It feels like another one of those things artificially placed upon us by capitalism. By fascism.
there *is* no more money
i'm not sure i can be talking explicitly about this, because there are legal proceedings, but let's jus say a VERY BIG BANK is putting the spurs to me to collect some debts. i started a debt relief program back in the fall of 2022 to try to resolve some of the crushing debts i incurred during my separation…
the "wrong" twelve hundred words
i was trying to work on finish up my expansion of "after gelderloos" (really wanna look at changing that title) today — and i wrote over twelve hundred words, but they weren't necessarily the ones i wanted to write.
between your sheets
my personal opinion: this is the best / most complete of the uke-based tracks i started on back in october... so, you know, it's all downhill from here 😅
returning to marai (part 2)
in the spirit of inspiring me to keep going, i'll post a larger chunk of this nascent novel today. if you need it, here's the link back to part 1. a reminder that *** means a break between sessions of writing, not necessarily a break between scenes.
Jewel of Marai (working title) - part 2
keep on sharing wips
i know the vox are barely audible in this one — most of these quick little uke tracks never got to the point where i felt good enough about them to sing full-throated.
best laid plans... (just do and thrive)
I mentioned in my last post that i'd been working on expanding some of my recent writing efforts, including the piece posted there, as suggested.
however — i've also been playing around with another concept that was none of the things i suggested previously 😅 (because i am nothing if not inconsistent!)
leaning in to being scatterbrained
there's been a lot more activity here lately than i had been creating before. partly, i suppose, because i feel like i need an outlet for all of the various things i'm doing, and i really am committed to staying clear of (most forms of) social media.
i think the entire nature of social media, and digital interactions in general, is dehumanizing. what i've come to call the "people-in-cars" phenomena.
oh, apparently I can post video now?
So...I got covid finally. Made it through four years of pandemic only to get it now. I'm miserable, but i'm sure i'll be fine.
I was basically incapacitated on Saturday.
Aside from that, i find myself occasionally googling symptoms i hadn't expected like…
i hit publish (again)
this is one of those cases where, "if money was no object" things might go very differently. i could keep on tweaking "watch it!" and i might be happier with it eventually, i might not.
starting on marai (part 1)
I was going to share another stream-of-consciousness journal kind of piece here today, but i'm a little tired of it. The point i was going to make anyway is that i should just do the art i want to do, and i suppose part of the reason why i want to share unfinished works / works in progress here, is to drive me to finish them.
processing some shit
What if i’m the problem?
I keep seeing all these red flags around me.
I’m not good at just saying shit straight. It’s had bad consequences for me in the past.
Listening back
I'm in this stage, again, of producing a song where it's nearly done. I'm listening back, over and over again — on my computer, on speakers, in my car, in earbuds — on every device I can get my hands on to see if it holds up.
This is where my production playlist comes in, too — I listen to the song against other tracks, the beginning and the end, the middle — in one order, than another.
i'm trying to post without listening
if i actually listened back to these before putting them up — i might now share them at all 🤣
consider that my voucher on quality 🫠
i'm literally going through, in the order i drafted these songs. we're almost to the "most complete" one (that's number 5) — but even that one needs a lot of work still.