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starting on marai (part 1)

I was going to share another stream-of-consciousness journal kind of piece here today, but i'm a little tired of it. The point i was going to make anyway is that i should just do the art i want to do, and i suppose part of the reason why i want to share unfinished works / works in progress here, is to drive me to finish them.

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Listening back

I'm in this stage, again, of producing a song where it's nearly done. I'm listening back, over and over again — on my computer, on speakers, in my car, in earbuds — on every device I can get my hands on to see if it holds up.

This is where my production playlist comes in, too — I listen to the song against other tracks, the beginning and the end, the middle — in one order, than another.

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this cheese had nothing to do with you

in the interest of journaling my process, honestly, i thought i should share something that literally just happened.

i was craving a snack, for...reasons...and my partner's super codependent dog (he's so cute, but so needy) followed me into the kitchen, so me — being a cruel bitch — I taunted him by singing at him, "no — i'm gonna eat this cheese and it's got nothing to do with you."

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a new release

ok, so i guess i finally am putting out a new track. i've been alternately struggling with / ignoring this one because (in part) i was having trouble with the vocal line. Prior to my transition, I was always pretty proud of my bass voice. I can comfortably sing a low C, and even touch a B, even a B-flat (though it's not a terribly useful / pleasant sound). My tessitura was always low E to like the G or A below middle C — and I feel weird about trying to alter my voice for transition.

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Processing >>productivity<<

I have not been very >>productive<< these past few months. Why write >>productive<< like that? Because I feel like I shouldn’t have to be. But I also feel a great pressure to be. To produce. To create. To “do my job.” Whether it’s my actual job, the thing that keeps a roof over my head, keeps me and my kids fed, keeps the power on, etc., or it’s my art — that I have to resist putting in quotes as “art” because I feel like it’s not legitimate. Without audience. Without money. Without cred. Without working for it.

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Spotify stealing from small artists to pay big ones

Spotify is hoping you won't notice, but they've just announced a new policy to steal from small artists to pay bigger ones. Buried in their recent Spotify for Artists newsletter was this notice that "Starting in early 2024, tracks must have reached at least 1,000 streams in the previous 12 months in order to generate recorded royalties."

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an update. why? because capitalism.

i checked my bank account balance this morning. it's something i typically avoid doing for a while, and then force myself to. it was less than i thought it was — which is fun because i have a week until my next paycheck, groceries to buy, and a kid's birthday coming up (thankfully, i already have some presents bought). i look at the handy digest of mail coming today and find tolls and tax bills, numbering way more than the balance of what's in. my account, and try not to think of the already-late mortgage payment i have to make next week as soon as i get paid again, and how that will eat about half my paycheck — the other half going to pay off debts i incurred in the year after separating from my ex.

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To Tok or Not to Tok

Since I'm pretty sure every one of y'all came here from TikTok, it seems relevant to post this here 😅

You may have noticed I've been taking an extended break from TikTok.

At first it was a mental health break. I had some unpleasant interactions on the app, and in general it was just stressing me out, so I stepped away for a bit.

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