hi, i’m nuri. this is where i’ll post things i’m working on (when i remember to) — whether its music, or musings, or fiction, or video, or live events, or whatever comes next. if you want to follow along, it’s free, or you can choose to pay. you don’t get anything extra if you pay, but you help support me to keep doing the things, and i appreciate it. 💕
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Recent posts
show(s) (and other stuff) coming
i'm playing a show on june 1. (if you're the facebook type, here's the link there).
the last time i played out was december 2015 — it was a "holiday" concert, a benefit, and we played one song. i don't even remember it. i don't think i have a recording of it anywhere.
maybe moving from patreon? odd thing to post on patreon.
well, last night's anxiety post sure was fun, huh?
i'm not gonna go back down that rabbithole, but just say that it's (hopefully? i think?) being dealt with.
every time i open this lately, or share something from here, i feel more and more like patreon is not the right platform.
fucking taxes
i haven't had the energy to / prioritized posting here lately (i feel like i say this a lot) .
i'm sitting with my anxiety tonight. i know if i go to bed now, i will lie awake and stare at the ceiling with my thoughts spinning from subject to subject.
some more boops
i see people are still visiting here. i don't know who you are, but "hi!"
for some reason keyboards / synths seem to be what's coming out recently. i don't know if any of this will turn into a final project, but i guess that's why i share the process, as messy as it is.
i hit publish (again)
this is one of those cases where, "if money was no object" things might go very differently. i could keep on tweaking "watch it!" and i might be happier with it eventually, i might not.
starting on marai (part 1)
I was going to share another stream-of-consciousness journal kind of piece here today, but i'm a little tired of it. The point i was going to make anyway is that i should just do the art i want to do, and i suppose part of the reason why i want to share unfinished works / works in progress here, is to drive me to finish them.
Reorganizing
I don't know if you've noticed yet, but I spent a bit of time yesterday trying to reorganize things here to make it (theoretically) easier to find certain kinds of content.
I went back through every post i made and tried to clean up tags and add most of the posts to different collections.
this cheese had nothing to do with you
in the interest of journaling my process, honestly, i thought i should share something that literally just happened.
i was craving a snack, for...reasons...and my partner's super codependent dog (he's so cute, but so needy) followed me into the kitchen, so me — being a cruel bitch — I taunted him by singing at him, "no — i'm gonna eat this cheese and it's got nothing to do with you."
a new release
ok, so i guess i finally am putting out a new track. i've been alternately struggling with / ignoring this one because (in part) i was having trouble with the vocal line. Prior to my transition, I was always pretty proud of my bass voice. I can comfortably sing a low C, and even touch a B, even a B-flat (though it's not a terribly useful / pleasant sound). My tessitura was always low E to like the G or A below middle C — and I feel weird about trying to alter my voice for transition.
posting every day?
i just realized i hadn't posted yet today — and i had been posting every day the past few days — so i came here to ask if posting every day is desired / too much.
i had an idea, but i forgot it 🤣
i was going to post about something else completely today, but i guess i'll keep sharing works-in-progress (WIPs). here's the second draft rough mix from october's abortive effort to write, record and produce an entire album in one month. i know i could probably make *something* out of any of these, but i'm not really sure what.
music discoveries
unless and until i completely give up on spotify / find a suitable replacement, i'm continuing my personal tradition of creating a new "discovery" playlist for each new year. the (vague) criteria are that the artist should be unknown to me (although i've broken this on occasion for an exceptional track by an artist known to me), and the track needs to have — in some way — grabbed my attention.
dunno if i could bear to listen to this
but i suppose i did say i would start sharing these WIPs. without listening — because i'm really not sure i could bear it, i'm pretty sure i was not happy with the lyrics to this one, possibly the harmony and form (i.e. the whole damn song). and this was just the first one i started laying down.
next share
ok, so maybe going through some of my WIPs will actually inspire me to get working again... so what do you want to see next?
The Misery of Aphok
Little bit of intro... this piece is old. Very old. I wrote it originally in like 2005–2007 or thereabouts as part of a sci-fi novel i was working on that i called "The Passenger." This story was supposed to be a folktale from one of the unaligned (as in, not directly associated with one of the major powers) planets in that story's universe. I keep thinking I'd like to expand on the idea, by writing a bunch of different folktales set in a sci-fi universe.
Shouting into the wind
So, in the spirit of what I posted yesterday, here’s a bit of an update on this past season, before I start sharing all kinds of random crap in the hopes of jollying myself out of this depression / actually getting back to the things i want to do.
sharing other things?
so — i've been debating whether folks (I guess as of time of writing, that's still just you, Becca) would be interested in me sharing random other things here that are non-music.
Processing >>productivity<<
I have not been very >>productive<< these past few months. Why write >>productive<< like that? Because I feel like I shouldn’t have to be. But I also feel a great pressure to be. To produce. To create. To “do my job.” Whether it’s my actual job, the thing that keeps a roof over my head, keeps me and my kids fed, keeps the power on, etc., or it’s my art — that I have to resist putting in quotes as “art” because I feel like it’s not legitimate. Without audience. Without money. Without cred. Without working for it.
Spotify stealing from small artists to pay big ones
Spotify is hoping you won't notice, but they've just announced a new policy to steal from small artists to pay bigger ones. Buried in their recent Spotify for Artists newsletter was this notice that "Starting in early 2024, tracks must have reached at least 1,000 streams in the previous 12 months in order to generate recorded royalties."
Watch it...
So, as I may have alluded to in my last post. I have a new track that's done/almost done/ready to be mixed and mastered.